The Front Door

START WITH
I LOVE YOU

I left the Mormon church. I found the road. I found the Deer Trail. And somewhere in there, I became an artist. This is the front door to all of it — the shirts, the pop-ups, the secret shows, the music, the road. Start with I love you. See where it takes you.

You don't need the whole map to begin.

I spent years looking for one. Turns out I just needed one clue: love is a practice.

All of it asks the same question: what helps a human become more fully alive?

The Road So Far

From the Mormon Church
to the Deer Trail

This is my journey. Each step, each retreat, each surrender — leading to the room where Kenny McCormick IV was born. The characters will live on. But the real artist is me. You'll soon hear about him.

The Beginning
Leaving the Mormon Church
I was raised in the Mormon church. On the normal path. At a certain point, I walked away — from the church, from the path that was mapped out for me, from the person I was supposed to become. I didn't know where I was going. I just knew I couldn't stay.
The Journey
The Road — Kenny Holland & Nobody
I made music as Kenny Holland — records, tours, the life of a working artist. Then I disappeared into the name Nobody. A masked project. A confession. The beginning of the spiritual dying of self. I was on the road, searching for something I couldn't name.
2023
The Frequency Finds Me
On the road, something found me. A frequency. A path. When I had nothing left to hide behind, a kid named Nobody showed up — that was me. The frequency found its artist.
The Birth of Past N9NE
Sedona, AZ
Past N9NE was born in Sedona — an artist's label designed to give me the room to finally stop hiding behind characters and just be myself. The container for what was coming.
The Deep Work
The Retreats
Sacred plant medicine retreats. The deeper inward work. Confronting what the body carried. The ecosystem growing — Spiritual Plants, the framework, the practice. The road continued.
2026
Asheville, NC
Shope Creek Wilderness. 131 acres. The path led me here. The Deer Trail was made. The gathering that became the documentary. The path from Nobody to Kenny.
The Framework

Wake up. Heal. Live it.

This is the practice I live by. Not another wellness marketplace. Not another altered state. A way to stay conscious inside the life I already have — and to keep becoming the person I was always meant to be.

01

Open

Feel something. A song, a shirt, a van, a plant, a story — something interrupts the ordinary.

02

Awaken

See what is happening. A daily practice of feeling what's actually happening inside your real life.

03

Heal

Work with what you carry. Body, energy, nutrition, emotion and the deeper patterns you carry.

04

Integrate

Build a new autopilot. Insight, daily practice, real human guidance and technology in one path.

05

Live

Return it to the world. Connection, creativity, courage, play, contribution.

What's Coming

Billy Loves Willie

40 Days. 40 Nights. Asheville. A 40-day love crusade in the Blue Ridge — music, mountains, plants and one honest question — counting down to the last legal night.

The campaign begins September 1st. My debut album launches across the forty nights. The Deer Trail documentary carries the story. Sponsors are coming in. Major noise is being made. I hope you'll be part of it.

Enter Billy Loves Willie

© 2026 Kenny McCormick IV. All rights reserved.